Weight-in.............. just seems so... impossible.

Starting Weight: 224
Current Weight: 216.5
Loss this Week: -7.5
Total Loss: -7.5



HOW?!?!?!!

Goals I forgot to set. These are subject to change of coarse. I based this on losing an average of 2lbs a weekish. Cause I know from past experience it changes quite a bit from week to week. When you look at it this way it doesn't seem impossible at all!

215 by 1st day at Pet Smart (8/11/08)

205 by The first day of Vet Tech School (9/3/08)

175 by Thanksgiving (11/27/08)

150 by my Sisters 15th birthday (1/22/09)

130 by my 24th birthday (3/16/09)

Saw the Dark Knight for the second time today :D loved it! I really don't want to work tonight. Its 98 degrees outside and we have no air. Seafood with no air equals no fun lol. I think thats why I hate this job so much. It's too hot all the time. If it wasn't I don't think I would really mind it too much. Going to clean my room a little i have to figure out what to do with all my clothes I dont wear. Save them if I lose some weight? Or throw perfectly good clothes away and buy new ones when I do. I dunno. My room is too cluttered so I have to figure something out.

Starting back up. I didn't do so great yesterday. I didn't bring food to work so when I got off I was so hungry i just stopped at taco bell :( I know. Already screwing up. But today... i'm making a gutted bagel and egg whites. For lunch I'm bring a cottage cheese double to work. Dinner maybe some crab legs or fish of some sort since I work in a seafood market. (yummmm) I did the vegetarian thing last time i did the diet and i lost so much more weight. I think its because most of my temptations include meat. I'm debating doing that again. I'm 100% animal rights. I have to decide. I think im going to do Eggs, Milk, and Seafood. Just nothing else cause I need the protein. Ramble Ramble Ramble. lol. Food time :D yum. I actually love healthy food.

So here I am. July 19th 2008. Its been over 2 years since I was on the diet. I had a lot of ups and downs. A lot of things have changed with me. I don't work at Burger King anymore. I haven't since last summer. I had a couple jobs in between nothing worth talking about, but now I start at Pet Smart on August 11th as a Pet Care Specialist since I'm going back to school in september to be a vet tech :D It's a big step for me and I'm really really excited!!! I met the love of my life a year ago. My other half :D He's been the best thing to ever happen to me.
But....
of coarse theres a but...

I gained back A LOT. I was foolish. Looking back on this journal a lot of things hit me hard. I dont remember being under 200... and i cant believe i gave up so soon. I could have been almost at my goal the way I was moving!! I wouldn't be hiding in my house on a beautiful day like today when deep down I want to go lay on the beach. Its effecting me really bad.. not emotionally but physically. I seem to be more tired. Less productive. I dont need to say more cause you all probably know what i mean. It's bad. I got out of breathe walking through campus going to register for classes bad.

Needless to say. I'm back, and I'm really sorry I ever left.


Highest Weight- 230
Lowest Weight(on the diet)- 196
Current Weight- 224
Goal- 130

Very recent.. Kris has pizza in his mouth so he looks a little goofy lol. You can see how I blew up.

I have no idea how this happened but it did-

Starting Weight: 230
Current Weight: 196.5
Weight lost this week: -7.5
Weight lost total: -33.5


Going to the gym now then tanning after. I feel lonely and really want someone to be with. So I guess thats why I'm trying so hard. Hahah. I just want a boyfriend again that cares about me and wont decide out of nowhere that he doesnt. Like the past 2 have. Makes me feel like somethinig is wrong with me. They will both regret doing it when they see how I look in a month.

So yea. I hit a low slump and took 2 months off from my diet. Today after EVERYONE telling me that I gained weight I pushed through my denial and weighed myself. And Indead I did gain weight back. So here we go again. If you don't feel like looking back forever ago when I started this is it..

Starting Weight: 230
Lowest Weight: 196
Current Weight: 204
Goal Weight: 130

200 is an ugly number. and I feel ugly...

FANTASIC treat..

Honey Straws.

So sweet and satisfying when all you want it to grab candy.

They are like 15 calories a stick. and all natural. and they take forever to eat so they last a long time!

def a tip from me!

Starting Weight: 230
Current Weight: 196
Loss this week: -3.5
Total Loss: -34

I have off work tomorrow I think its about time to do some measurements!

starting weight:230
Current Weight:

Weight Lost this Week: -.9
Weight Lost Total: -30.5


Finallyy!!!!!


p.s.- dont make fun of my feet!!!!!

Starting Weight: 230
Current Weight: 200.4 (damn it!!!!)
Weight Lost this week: -1.4
Current Loss: -29.6

I really wanted to hit my new years goal today even tho it's way early. I was going to set a new one.. but know who knows if I will even make it. I have 3 parties this weekend so I have to force myself through them :( I don't want to gain when I am so close to the 100's!!!

ughhh i feel like a fat porky fat ass. ive been working so hard and i feel like today i just acted out of the fat habits i used to have. i didnt gut my bagel for breakfast. and i didnt have low fat cream cheese. went out for dinner with friends. i did ok by ordering the veggie burrito at the mexican place we went to. i knew to say light cheese- sauce on the side. but something inside of me just wanted all of the cheese so bad. like a little cheese wasnt enough for me. then i told myself i was only going to eat half of it and half of my rice. but instead i ate almost the whole thing with... SOUR CREAM. not fat free sour cream, but resturant sour cream. full fat high calorie sour cream. and i ate ALL of the cheese!!!! then alexis wanted the cheesecake chimichangas or whatever and didnt want to eat it alone. so i said id share it. and all my friends know when i meen "share" i usually meen.. eat one bit and not have anymore. and i usually have enough will power to saver that one little bit long enough so the other person can eat the whole thing. i ate ice cream and like almost half of it. what happened to me?!? i was doing so good. its only food. i dont NEED it. i dont NEED to eat any of it. i wanted to. and that hasnt happened to me in the longest time. grrrrr. stupid fucking diet.

Didnt have time to post my weigh-in on Thursday cause we have inspection next week at work. And I've spent all day and night almost every day and night there cleaning cause its my shift when we have the inspection. And if I pass I get $200.00 from the company. So yea. I'm working my tush off!!
Well Here it is-

Starting Weight: 230
Current Weight: 201.8
Weight Loss this Week: -2.8
Weight Lost Total: -28.2


Lbs til New Years Goal: 2.8

Didnt have time to post my weigh-in on Thursday cause we have inspection next week at work. And I've spent all day and night almost every day and night there cleaning cause its my shift when we have the inspection. And if I pass I get $200.00 from the company. So yea. I'm working my tush off!!
Well Here it is-

Starting Weight: 230
Current Weight: 201.8
Weight Loss this Week: -2.8
Weight Lost Total: -28.2


Lbs til New Years Goal: 2.8

Breakfast:
Gutted bagel
Eggwhites
Sprinkle Cheddar Cheese

Lunch:
Orange
Fat Free Yogurt

Dinner:
2 slices Weight Watchers whole wheat bread
BK Veggie Patty (burgerking has the best veggies)
Slice Mozz Cheese

Snack:
Celery
Blue Chesse Dressing
Cranberries

Starting Weight: 230
Current Weight: 204.6
Loss this week: -4.6
Total Loss: -25.4

a little proud of myself :) i'm almost at my new years goal with over a month left!!!! woo hoo!!

weigh in tomorrow. i'm so nervous because the lack of movement i've made in the last 2 weeks. i went up .4 then down .4 so i was exactly the weight i was at the weigh in 2 weeks ago. so im am so nervous for tomorrow.. i hope i made some progress.

Breakfast:
1 Cup Special K
1/2 cup skim milk

Lunch:
Organic Fiber Bar
A bite of my sister crumb cake
Black Bean Vegetarian Chili

Dinner:
Ihop :)
The Garden Scramble off the fatkid menu
It had 1/2cup EggBeaters
Peppers
Onion
Mushrooms
Tomato
and 2 small pancakes on the side

Snack:
Peppermint Tea
Dried Cranberries
2 spoonfulls cottage cheese

Breakfast:
Gutted bagel bottoms
Egg Whites

Lunch:
Whole Wheat Bread
Hummus
Lettice
FF Mozz Cheese

Dinner:
Veggie Burger
Roll bottom
FF Mozz Cheese
Celery
Med. Orange

Snack:
100 Calories South Beach Diet bar I stole from Alexis :)

Almost 60oz water :)